First of all I would like to take this moment to thank you for visiting my blog, God bless you. Sometimes in life we question God’s plan with our lives, and say when are you going to bless me, oh God? Do you love me? and so forth…
Sometimes when I was in pain or going through a difficult situation, I used to say “God don’t love me” until I read a bible scripture about God’s love for his children in the book of Romans 8:37-39 “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death, nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, we be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord“. After reading this, I realized that nothing, I mean nothing in this earth shall disconnect me from the love of God. Through my suffering, I always knew that God was going to release me one day and make something out of me.
God gave up this Son, Jesus Christ Just for you to live, your suffering is temporary. Source:http://www.joliblog.com
During my high school years, I always said “nothing good will come out of me, as I am created to suffer in this world” this was something so ridiculous coming out of my mouth and most unproductive thought that was growing on my mind. I passed my high school, and took a gap year because I was not open minded about the opportunities out there that are awaiting for me, I was feeling sorry for myself and angry at my parents for not being able to provide for me and my siblings. I started doing wrong things, while at the same time people were mocking me, people were relentless that suicide crossed my mind. I was desperate, until this other day I said “I need to do something with my life”, I went to the University of Johannesburg during the open day to find out if there was anything I can do. I got enough information as possible, but the problem was the application fee that I had to pay before I can hand in my application. I became hopeless as my mama was not working at that time, but I made a way to go out there and get the money, I knew that some people people had good hearts and they were going to help me. I spoke to strangers and asked for help, until one stranger believed in me and gave me the money to apply. After I got accepted to the University, I applied for financial aid, which I got.
So, what am I going to eat now that I got accepted? I started looking for part-time jobs, I got hired at a petrol station, Total Garage. I will never forget what the Manager from the gas station, Mbuso Mtshali did for me during that time. I saved some money which I used to take care of my self for the first semester. I turned to God, and seeked in prayer for his help and guidance. I got the an overwhelming amount of help.
With this experience I realized that God has his way of testing our faith. During my second year I had saved little bucks, and I was living off Hundred and Fifty Rands (R150-00) a month, and was not so embarrassed to go to the University’s soup kitchen and ask for food. One day I spoke to my Head of Department, Rene Benecke from the University of Johannesburg who believes and sees so much potential in me. She tried to find all the help she could for me. During second semester on my second year she recommended me for a scholarship to one of the most successful and biggest media agency in the country, Mindshare South Africa.
I met Phillicia Moodley, company’s HR Director, she believed in me just like Rene did. Mindshare gave me the opportunity that changed my life and I will always be thankful for that and making me somebody. I believe I got a second in life and that my future is bright, so take this with you, “dreaming is worth a try and God will never forget about you”. God gave me second chance, and I am now determined and sees life with a different eye. God loves each of us as if there were only one of us. I still can’t pray, but I know how to speak to my God.
